Broad Spectrum

I lay in my bed thinking about how my life has come to this. What decisions have I made that make me feel this empty feeling of worthlessness? The lights from my flickering candles illuminate the dark room. The sun is beginning to set. I play some calming music and rap myself up in a comforting blanket to try to push the thoughts away. I know I look awful right now, so I don't bother looking in the mirror when I walk into the bathroom. Thinking and thinking as the room continues to grow darker. I begin shaking and crying because a sudden realization has crossed my mind. Why are you acting this way? You have such a blessed life! There are hundreds of people in the world that have reasons to feel the way you are acting right now and you have nothing! Stop being selfish. The crying becomes silent tears and my face becomes numb. I know that I have no reason to feel like this I just can't help it. The darkness continues to fill the room and the only bit of light is coming from the little candles. The only thing that is making me happy is the little candles. They fulfill my sorrow and make it disappear for the time I spend watching them bend and twist in the wind. I rely on these candles to help me when I need them. If I lose the brightness I will be swallowed in the dark, and there will be no escape.

-Anonymous